1 - FORMSPRING .

i wonder why its called a formSPRING . when its winter .-_- .
idkk , i just notice alot of things . :O

WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO ARGUE WITH ME D: FREAKING SISTERS SUCK ):

i dont always argue with you .
brothers suck >:O

Do you like girls or guys? xD Just random who do you like just say the first letter?? ?__?

i like guys . -_- .
LOL , and i currently do not like anyone .

Its Porky, Hey? LOL

hello there ;')

whts kblw ???????

well , err . its my initials .
i just added the "w" for west .
cuz im married to kanye west .
haha .

do u think brian is da sexyest guy on earth beatin jacob/taylor

LOLOL. uhh . sure :D

KIMMMMI :) yesterday was a bust but did you have fun waiting in the long line with me?

baileyyyy . lolol .
the line omggg . the line . 2 hours
for stupid club fab .
but i had fun waiting with you eric and derek .
eric laughs funnny .

r u a virgion

yes , yes i am :D

i heard manny is pretty sexy. is this rumor true?! oh and hi [:

lol , yes it is true . HAHA .
manny if this is you .
you are so lameeeeeee.
hai [;

do girlz think of penisss****** sometimez?

uhhhhh . well, some girls are curious about it . but it all depends what kind of person you are .[;

do u think ur small and funsize? =]

lol . yes (:

why is manny so sexy D: ? and how is he so cool!

Hes sexy because he's my brother (:
He's cool , because hes there for me no matter what <3

winter break so far.....

the last day of school , was the 18th on friday . and school starts on the 4th again . -_- .
lets see what i have done so far ...

friday ,18th - Go to monicas house & then watch a performance at church .
saturday ,19th-church , and sleepover monicas
sunday , 20th- bible , then go to irvine . come back home , and run errands .
monday , 21st- uhh stayed home . i thinkk .
tuesday , 22nd - sibling bonding time .
wednesday, 23rd-block &carls jr . with ; bailey , catherine , me , quynh , sophia, anthony h, tram ,hoang, eric, timmy , dominic ,jimmy, alan, robinson. & later johslyn:D
thursday,24th- *christmas eve* cousin came over & then dinner & then bonfire
friday 25th- *christmass* watched sherlock holmes & went to bannana bayy .
saturday 26th- bible , church , & then go to La .
sunday 27th--genesis came over , and ate all my oreos :O

LETS MAKE PLANSS .
HAVE ONE WEEK TILL SCHOOL D: .

20 things i likeee/love .

1. jabbawockeez
   
2. abdc show (:
3. spongebob
   
4. snowcones with ALL the flavors
   
5. jackets , with the pockets on the inside .
   
6. tight & warm hugs .
   
7. people that play the guitar
   
8. weiner dogs (:
9. kanye west .
   
10. movies with the close ones <3
11. smiley after every sentence
    
12. PINKPINKPINK
13. homemade brownies
    
14. blogging .
    
15. summerr vacations (:
16. caramell apples <3
    
17. family dinners .
    
18. sleepoverss.
    
19. funny videos
    
20. decorating the christmass tree.
    

MERRY CHRISTMAS (:

to: you . from: me .

you say one thing and do another .
you talk crap on everyone .
when i say everyone , i mean everyone .
even me . your fuckin best friend .
you talk shit on this girl that flirts with two guys .
when your doing the exact thing .
ugh . i try to tell you . but you deny it .
you say you hate her .
next day you try to talk to her & add her on myspace.
i dont care what you do . just dont fucking talk shit on her , when you want
to be her friend . wtf man .
you always brag about a guy you llike .
you never ask me about my problems.
just talk about yours .
you never ask me how my day was .
you just talk about yourself .
YOURSELF YOURSELF YOURSELf.
seems like you always think about yourself .
dont get me wrong , your a really great bestfriend .
and everyone has there flaws.
but this particularr problem you have . pissses me off .


* and this will be the first and last time im blogging like this .
i just really needed to do this .

if your really angry at someone .
write a letter to that person .
but dont send it .
express all your feelings .
it works .
i decided to do it on here , cuz i dont want to waste paper :D .
man , im feeling better already

im so sick and tired of cleaning up peoples messes .
the only thing fun about my day was P.E .
i cant beleive i just said that .
It was really fun . We played hockey , and alot of people passed me the hockey puck .
i felt special :D tehehe .
besides that , it wass ightt .

life is just full of bullshit.

everybody thinks they got me all figured out .well , if you can tell i dont really show my feelings . when im sad , i dont cry in front of people . I do it alone . & you can tell that i dont laugh alot .
alot of people think im emotionless. haha . No , thats just me hiding my feelings . The reason why i dont show my feelings is because ; 1 . i dont want people going up to me and say " OMG KIM ARE YOU OKAY ? WHAT HAPPEND ? " . 2. i dont want peoples attention . So , my solution is to hold it all in . Until . i .cant. take . it . anymore. i know thats "bad" . but thats the only thing i can do right now . now a days , ive been different . At school you think im "normal" , "happy" . but you have no idea whats going on inside. i smile . but most of the time its fake. I try to hide it all in , but its killing me lately . and i dont know what to do about it . so many problems . and i cant solve them all at once .stress is eating me alive . "life is just full of bullshiet" i need a break . seirously .

11:50 am .

i hate how my parents are like " GO DO YOUR ESSAY NOW" , when im already doing it :P.
they take things so seirously , and there so controllable .
in this case, its my dad . not my mom , shes moree flexable and understands me much more then my dad . today , he just barged in my room , and started looking through all my stuff .
(at least he didnt do it while i was gone) :P . and then he started to take stuff down my walls .
and im likw wth? he said it doesnt look clean .
and noo , i didnt have dirty stuff on my walls :P
-clean to him is boring , plain , and apparently he doesnt want anything on the walls .
ugh , he annoys me so much . he says he takes care of me . bull shiet.
i think already said this before. but i REALLY mean it now .
hes starting to bug the shiet out of me . like seirously.
thankfully ,hes out of the house now .
i just really need to get away .
away from him, away from everyone, away from everything .
the only way to help me escape is music .
like seirously , i just close my eyes . and im gone......

life has its ups and downs

woah , so today was an amazingglyy good (: pshh , this is like the firstt time i said that .
hmm , soo todayy school was fun . FINALLYY .

- got new boots YAY .

1st period )-ASb: ehh , it was alrrightt . just sat around and talked :]

2nd period )-P.E : it was the funnest class !today was a free day ; you can choose what you want to do for p.e . You could walk and talk , soccer , or bball . So me , christian , andrew, jonathan, yani, and natilie went for a walkk . We played the question gamee , and i was surprised they were so open about it . haha .

one person said : have you ever had sexual fanticies in church ?
and one answered : why yes , yes i have .
haha sooo funny (:

*and if you dont know what the question game is sucks for you :D

3rd period )-science: boring , but got to eat candy and marshmellows in the end :D

4th period)-math : boringg too . didnt really do anything actually . time went by fasttt though .

Lunch) had a hotdog for lunch :D lol annndd a random dude came up to mee and was like "do you want to go to a club tonght"
*exchanged weird loooks . Lol

5th period) -english: took a testt . anddd finishedd historyy homeeworkk

6th period)- history : very happy in that class becauseeeeeee ms . bell was not here todayy !
thankkk god :D ehhee . had a very nice subsituteee and just did a worksheet .
partnered up with briann and just messed around . (:

after school ) - went home , and then got some food :D and thats it (:

TODAY WAS THE LAST DAYYY OF SCHOOL FOR THIS WEEK :D
YEEEE! tomorrow is gobble gobble dayy :]

right now just bored and talking on the phone with anthony :D
talking about mcdonalds , and turkeys .

tired.

i need to get it together . like seirously . i know i said it before . i still cant do anything . i cant change myself . its too hard . but step by step . 1st . i need to stop going on the computer 24/7 .
second . i need to get my act together . third , i gotta stop being lazy . I go home , cmputer , eat .
doing bad in school lately . C in p.e ! lkee wtfffff. ugh tomorrow the mile . i hateee it . ive been so tireddddd latellyy. ughh . i dont even do anything . :P gotta get up and do something .
i have to get my act upp . i have been slackingg off. time for something different .

49th .

GRRR . tomorrows backwords day!
so that means period 6 is FIRSTT . ):
that means i have tooo go to ms.bell first!
ugh . after school - JHS meeting .
gonna get in trouuuubleeeee. ):
anyways , i hope i can go saturdayy .
well ive been asking and asking . keeps saying noo .
dissappointmennt ! .
but i cant give up noow, gotta keep on trying !
right hoang ?
anyways , i took like a 5 hour napp today .
i hate myself for that. how am i suppose to sleep at night ? :O
WATCH THE FOURTH KIND . ITS CREEPY .
3:33 .

lol i know this is a random post . but oh well (:

48th post .

i feel more tired each day .
I dont know why . i sleep around 10:30
and wake up at 6 30 ish
thats like 8 hours of sleep :P
thats enoughh of sleep . but idkk , im really tired lately.

Im scared of going to school thursday . lol .
i dont want to face ms guns :O .
she has a strong voicee. Lol .
and im scared of her yelling . :P
grrr, well it was my own fault , i made the wrong choice
so i have to face the consequences .


OH and HAPPPPPPYYYY birthday HOANGGG (:
YOUR 15 ! OLD MAN ! (:

green- normal, neutral

Today was normal . Same. The usual .
1 ,3 , 5 . block schedule today and 2,4,6 tomorrow.
because of the writing promt thing .
i do not want to go to school tomorrow .
I have the worst classesss! & i think im going to get in trouble .

tuesday:
p.2 - p.e for like 2 hours :O
p.4- math . bowen ; most boringest teachers ever.
p.6- history . bell ; meanest teacher alive.
after school honor society meeting .


wednesday:
collaboration - THANK GOODNESS!
als / apollos after school.
mabey church (depends)

thursday & friday:
normal schedule
i think were turning in our front of the line passes .
and i dnt have mine . :O
gonna gett in troublee! ):
saturday:
calvins birthday thing .
if not block & church

sunday :
treasure island place thing.

teeehee . right now , i am so full i think im going to K.O. :O .


"They can, because they think they can"

"Do not dwell of the pat , do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment"

grey- sad, hurt.

you know what gets on my nerves most of the time ? My parents. They think they're doing a perfect job with me . & guess what ? there wrong . So many things are going through my mind and they dont even know it . I bet they dont love me as much as they USED TO. They dont have to say it ,i can just tell . They got there own thing now . They dont even take care of me . They only think of themselves. My mom just picks me up from school , drops me home , then goes to who knows where. My dad has absolutely NO TIME for family. Works , Church (5x a week), tennis , comes home, eat, sleep , and then repeat the whole thing again. My brother is 10 years older then me . -.-
He has better things to do then be home , taking care of me :P. Im home alone almost everyday - sometimes night. And they say they always got time for me . bS. I think its time to MAN up and stop depending on others. I have to get my own thing now. I mean, its not like i cant take care of myself........

blue - happy , relaxed

today was really fuunn . went to the block , and went with kelvy , monica, ed, tj , ivan, lorena, juan, ralph and his brother ruben.we went to go see the fourth kind ,and it kinda freaked me out . Lol it was trippy and weird . aha after that we went to carls . and i tried the GREATEST milkshake ever.
Its called the cookie dough shake . it was soooo good. next time anyone goes with me , if you buy me one ill love you forever!! haha (: after that we just went to spencers and mest around, and then to the candy store . haha . then we went home . overall we had a great time , and i hope we can do this again ! (: <3>

yellow- mixed emotions -normal,excited , glooomy

Omg, my 277 pg book .
i started it yesterday at 5 :00 . and read all the way to 10. non stop.
got to pg 150 . went to sleep .
next morning . woke up 6:30 . got ready . ate while reading the book .
got to pg 200 .
block schedule : (per. 1, 3 , 5)
period 1- asb
read half of the time in there.
finished. ACOMPLISHHHEDDDDDDD! yeeeyeeee.
so proud of myselfff . (:

anyways , today was alriceee.
exept TOMORROW we dont have school! .
(: watching the fourth kind .
and thats pretty much my update (:

"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all."

"If you are going through hell, keep going."

amber red - busy ; worried

i have so many things to accomplish ! i have only a couple of days . Lets seee heree ,
first , i have to finish my 277 pg book . and i have till friday . im on pg 2 . fail .
second, turn in my honor society hours . turning them in tomorrow.
third , clean up room , do laundry , chores. -tonight.
fourth , study for p.e test. - not sure when the test is.
fifth, study for history test. gotta cram in 2 months of history into 4 days.
if you havent noticed im really bad in history . im the only one that got (F-).
like seirously . what kind of asain am i ?
but im going to after school toturing. (not sure if that will help my grade go up)
if it doesnt im screwed .

and thats all the things i have to do . ugh . sunday bad dayy .
going to lA . no time, to start on the things i want to do.

im so distracted by the computer, and tv .
i have no time to do things anymore .
im trying to cut down my time on the computer.
and hopefully , do better in school .
i just gotta keep on trying and not giveup .

"its not whether you get knocked down , its whether you get up "

black -stressed, overworked .

so you know how i told you i took my history test ? well my results : F - .
69/135 . mabey its cuz karma. or mabey im just dumb.
ugh . this is a total step down .
im going to get kicked out of honors , and a possible chance of asb ?
but i gotta read the rules . if it says i have to maintain a C in a class .
im dead . and the quarters about to end . ugh . FML .
but im gonna HAVE TO change my ways . i gotta stop complaing , and doing nothing about it ,
and cry , cuz thats not gonna help me :P.
My goal : To get better grades .
Im falling back , i dont know why .
but its time to focus more on school . (wow , so lame)
i HAVE to. if not . Im DEAD .
its time to change me . start reading . start doing extra work Kim .
this is so ghey . but whatevrs . if i say ima do it . Then fck yea ,ill do it .
TIME TO WORK HARDER AND MAKE SOME USE OUT OF ME .

" when REAL people fall down in life, they get right back up and keep walking"

"Whether you think you can or wheter you think you cant , your right ."

broken.

im broken . ive been overwhelmed by stress. No one understandds .
My parents esspecially. My dad just makes it worse .
people expect too much from me .
anyways today , was the ASb conference thing .
it's where , we learn new things and suchh .
& we get to skip school , and get back for 6th period .
but i was worried about my history test the whole timee we were there.
& ended up not having a good time .
Going back to 6th period (history) , i got yelled at by MS.bell (pft, no wonder shes not married).
so when the test was finally put in my hands , i didnt know anything .
I think i should just , let everything go .
just not care about sschool anymore .
Cuz right now ,it seems like whatevers.
I currently have a C in history but who cares.
ive learned that friends are bS .
there not going to be there for you .
in the end, the only person you will be trusting ,
is yourself . overall , pretty much hating life rightnow .
FML .




"wheter you think you can or whether you think you can't , your right . "
"If you expect nothing , youre probably going to be surprised . you ' ll get it "
"I dont know the key to success,but the key to failure is trying to please everyone"

im so sick and tired . im so sick and tired of freakin school & life .
fckkk , life is so tiring right now . so stresseed & shiet .
i just want to let it out . i cant hold it in anymoree .
im going to explode . fck you . fck friends .
i just need to relieve it allll out .
i just dont know howw .
i cant really explain the feeling .
all i know is that right now, i dont feel like myself .

note **

i started my NEW softlips chapstick at 12 :26 pm during lunch , sitting on a bench .
near room 20 . november 2 , 2009 .
i know im random . (:

reflecting .comparing .

man , oh man . i wish it was like last year . it was soo fun . i always looked forward to school .
now ; its like i hate school . and it gets boring and boring each and every day . same routine, everyday . it was like an adventure last year, not expecting anything & things would always just happend . but now , i expect more , more things happening . but nothings happening . i feel so empty . everything is so different . i dont feel right .
i just wish , it could be the same again . but i know it wont be. & it kinda sucks , when i KNOW i cant do anything about it . nothing exciting . if you asked how my day is , my answer would be "it was fine or it was okay or it was alright ." back then if you asked me how my day was i would go on and on and on about it. why is everything so boring nowadays? i dont know about you guys , but i could sure use some excitement in my life right now .

pumpkin day .

yes yesterday , was punkin day . PUMPkin , PUNkin. i like punkin Better ,so im gonna call it that whether you like it or not . haha , so yesterday was alrighttt , it wasnt the BEST , But it wasnt the WORST either. it was in the middle . So , Basically it was a pretty Boring day but the night got better. SO , i went to church 4-6 .
it was not that Bad actually . i feel kinda Bad , my religion doesnt celebrate halloween ... and yea .
anyways , after church i went home got ready . put my nerdy glasses , suspenders, high socks, and all that gooddd stuff (: . so i left to jackies house , we made the rest of the people wait for an hour at walton . haha . after walking around for an hour . i looked at my bag , and there was like 2 candies in there. i looked at the bottom , and there was a freaking hole . haha . so i got 0/zero candy .
and the candy that was in the bag , i ate . so i got none after that .
so later that night , after trick or treating , we all went to vic/victors partyyy .
there was so much people there. and it was good seeing the familiar faces again (;
they all go to santiago , but there were some ppl from grove too and like 5% walton ppl.
but mannn ,, they party hard! there was alcohol , shots, light shows,dj , drugs, blazing it , everything. the dj was pretty good .
it was pretty good ,till the cops came and we had to all goo .
and it was about 11 at that time . and we just all left .
and that was my halloween (:

guys < girls .

guys have it ,wayyyyyy easierr then girls .
for example , today in 2nd period .
we are running the mile for p.e
i got (13.20) :P i fail bad .
but it wasnt my fault ,blame muther nature.
you know its that time of month ;I
and i had really horrible cramps .
like so baddd you wanted to cry.
and after the milee, i wasnt feeling to good .
i couldnt breath right . and so i went to the nurses ,
and called home blah blah , now i have to do all the hw i missed ;P.
ugh , fml . today was badd . guys have it so much easier , but not just cuz of that .
example 2: so girls take like an hour getting ready , while guys just shower , get dresses , and do there hair .
girls do makeup, straighten/curl hair , blowdry, accecorize ,nails ,etcetc .
example 3: so when girls get pregnant , its not very fun (but i wouldnt know )
i just think from my point of view , like cmonn, 9 months of pain .
throwing up, morning sickness, weird cravings, peeing randomly.etc .
and guys just be there for them , they dont go through anything . :P

so you seee, i THINK guys have it way easierr .

2012 .

whats up with the freaking weather ? LoL . its like 100 degrees , then its like 64 degrees .
then it rains ,then the next day it feels like a freaking desert.
you know what i think about alot ?
2012 . im not sure if its real or not , cuz people said that about 2000 , and stuff .
and it nevr happend . but the weather is trippppy.
then theres more stuff ,about the polar bears and the animals that are getting killed
cuz of the heat . i mean think about it ;; but then again , mabey its not real .
thers some proof , like the aztec calender stops at december something , 2012 .
im not trying to convince you that your gonna die or anything ,, im just sayinngg.

haha. well , we'll see . anyways , have you notice that time goes by so QUICK ?
3 days ago it was my birthday . seems like yesterday .
about a month and half ago , we started school .
In no time we will be like 25 (well if we make it that far) Lol .
yea well , i just wanted to point that out (:
haha okay byee!

"Time is free ,but its priceless. You cant own it , but you can use it. You cant keep it, but you can spend it. Once you've lost it you can never get it back.

"Time is money"

gray .

you are so fake . you cry , But why ?
you dont need to cry . your the one that caused evrything .
and now you want all the attention .
fck , your "negative shiet"
you dont care, so im not gonna give a fck .
you cry to me , thats your proBlem .
you think they care, But they dont .
try to get attention , people will ignore you .
try to explain to you , you walk away from the proBlem .
Hah , you expect so much , in the end you get NOTHING .
hah so have your lil Boi friend , soon you'll come crawling Back .
so , go ahead see what your missing out .
cuz Bish , i dont care anymore .

"you gotta deal with the shit people do ,not everyone in life is gonna stay true"
"what comes around goes around"
"no one stays true ,its like an addiction,cuz no one is real , its all fiction ."

birthdays thesee days;;

so , my birthday was yesterday ,october 24th . and you all bet i had a marvelous time. WRONG.
you know what i did for my birthday . I cried, i got ditched, and i got no presents (exept candy and 1 balloon). So your wondering , arent birthdays suppose to be a special day for that one person?
well , in this case . NO . (starts music) andddd this is how it alll begannnnnn....... (im going to be really specific)

so , yesterday i invited alot of people to the block . Almost everyone came , even people that werent invited? (and if you didnt get invited , my bad)(but after reading this , your gonna be glad you werent there) anyways, so everyone came , and this dude that we know had a credit card that could buy our tickets for us. but we had to buy it fast cuz the movie (PARANORMAL ACTIVITY) was almost starting . so everyone got in line with the dude - not everyone, exept 5 other people- .
(i didnt get my ticket because i didnt want to leave these ppl behind .)
so after they all got there tickets, this guy ,blaine, got me a ticket and handed it to me .
but someone (cant say the name) told me " noo kim , please i dont want to watch that movie its scary lets watch somone else.
thats when i had to say no , and he spent 12 dollars on that ticket. so everyone got in exepet us .
ughh .there was 5 people left behind .
(your probobly saying thats mest up , why would they go to the movie without the birthday girl, well some people even thought i was with them , and i wouldnt blame them , there was like 30 ppl) so they got in the movie .
and i said " WHAT THE HEO , what are we gonna do , wait for them ?"
and they were like like .....?? *crickets*
thats when i started crying , and noone cared . it may seem she cared ,but deeep down she didnt really care. some best friend she is.:P

so afterafter the whole tears , she said " LETS GO bUY THE TICKET TO WHERE THE WILD THINGS ARE" and im like ..... ugh . but i gave in .
the rest of the people however, didnt want to . so only me and her and 2 other ppl bought the ticket . we were suppose to sneak them in , but they couldnt .
so we were all sitting theree, and she kept talking about her boyfriend .
and im thinking like WTHEO . i couldve watched PARANORMALL mangg.
5 min liater she was like LETS GO KIM THIS IS A STUPID MOVIE .
i was like DUDE WTH , I bOUGHT tHIS MOVIE FOR 12 DOLARS .
she said WELl , LETS GO ANYWAYS .
im like UGH , and she started leaving .
i was like dammit , and i followed. .
wasted 12 dollers, fckker.


after that adventure , we went to wetseal and i was like oh this is a pretty necklace,
and she was like Go buy it (she didnt even get me a present yet)
and i said I dont have enough money , *i wonder whyyyy
and she said she can pay half , im like ... ok
and then we were at the cash register , my phone rang and it was her boyfriend
then all of a sudden she was like OH ITS OKAY ILL JUST bUY IT FOR YOU

so we met them up at jamba and i was so bored . .
she was making out with her boyfriend
so then after half an hour, everyone came out of the movie .
we met them , and then *she* gavve me a ride homee .
so right when they came out i had to say bye .
and started crying .
got one and a half present . :P
yipeee .
i started crying again . and she didnt even care .
she just started laughing and smiling .
we went in the car , left . went home .
and that was it .
happy birthday to me .
"expect the unexpected"

really specific! (:

Im gonna be really specific . becuase when im 30 , i hopefully will rememer this and read it . (:
teeeeeheee . ugh this is kinda hard to write , cuz im using my laptop . and one of the keys doesnt work . its the "b" . so i have to copy and paste. grrrr.

Soooooo im gonna talk about the days at the block . hmm , well i went last sunday .
catherine [cat], calvin [elephant],sydney[muther],timmy[uncle],bailey[the cutie], eric [the quarterback], hoang[the blackie] Lol, trammster[the mysterious one] , alex[the rapiest] ,jacob[the unexplainable] etc. [no specific order] .

quick summary , met up at vans , half of went to watch couples retreit ,
missed the begining cuz of *coughcough *blackie lol .
after , just walked around. over all it was an okay day .


October 17, 2009 .[5:30-10pm] ANother block day .
went with vincent , jackie, twinkie, jesus ,cynthia,yomira,nestor, etcetcetc.
to lazy to type names Haha .
watched STep father .
gheeyyy shiet . waster 11.50 . for that ?
nahhh .:P .
this day was pretty trippy haha .
dam . over all pretty fun (: (: .

NEXT WEEK IS MY bIRTHDAY. [Octoer 24th ,saturday]


3 parts to it .well im still not sure yet , but the plans are .
friday -block . watch toystory . - join (:
saturday-celerate with friends . -dont know what im doing yet
sunday-celerate with family <3>

TEHEHEHE. <3

thanks for reading (;

complaining

its what I do . & thats why i have a blog. Too say whats on my mind , vent out my problems, or just talk about my day . You can choose to read it or not . I could care less . :P.


So today was a VERY bad day . ugh . Woke up at 7:40 . VERY LATE . I usually wake up at 6:30 .
I dont know what happend. but i remember my dream ..it was about my dead dog,mushu. It felt like reality. I just remembered that ... i was petting him ,and feeling his soft fur, and holding him .- but then my alarm went off . Got mad a little . mostly sad . I wish he was still here ... seems, like i took mushu for granted . Now that hes actually gone . fck . I always told my self to not take things for granted . but i couldnt really understand it , until it really happend . So now its to late, and hes gone . I guess , i just have to deal with it . ....

THe rest of the morning...., Anyways so the rest of the morning was jsut worst. I showered till 7:50 . 10 minute showerr! . holyy shiiettt. so by the time i was done getting dressed it was 8:00 .
but as soon as i got in my room . I had HORRIbLE crampss . ); THe ones where you cant move AT ALL . i had to sit on my bed and hold onto my stomach. I just had to finish getting ready . So i fought my cramps like a little soldier , -oh and did i mention i got the flu this morning- .
as you can see i had a rough morning . As soon as i got to school , it was just a mess. My hair was everywhere , my nose was runny, i had even worser cramps ,and i sounded like a man .
-but it gets even worse , we had to run a mile . fml . :P .
and after schooll , ohh man oh man .
I came home expecting a nice little lunchable . you know , the little cracker, cheese and ham .
WEll i came home , open the fridge . and guess what isnt there .
yes , my lunchable . someone had eaten all my lunchables , drank all my juice, and left me with nothing . freeakkinnn monsterrss mannn . :P .
Lol haha .
well im done complaining . (:
I know you'll probobly wont read my blogs ever again . haha .
but oh wells . (:
byee!

school ,

is getting more fun [; . Not because of the homework and stuff . But the friends ive made or the friends i am now closer with . IT just feels rightt . [; I feel happy now . Friends are a big part of my life <3 . I love emm . They make me feel like im special . Lol , wow that was cheesy . :P Starting to actually like school <3

get a life.

you know what irretates me the most ? People who go on and on and on telling me that i got problems . Well you know what , YOU got problems. everyone got problems . Who doesnt ? You could be to shy , to bossy , to concedeied, to aggresive etc. But whatevers. Were human.So i dgaf if you tell me i got problems & i dont care if you hate me either . I got more lovers then haters anyway . WHy should i care if you hate me . GO bug someone else. i mean seirously , get a life. Stop thinking your better then everyone else . Cuz your not . Stop Trying. Cuz it's not working . stop wasting MY time . Stop wasting your time. I get it, you dont like me . I dont care. Go away then . its like you dont get the message. i say one thing and you make it a big deal out of nothing. Stop making up lies so you can make me feel bad . well you knoe what , it doesnt work . it never had . it never will . its funny how you make it seem like im the center of your world. Haha ,whatevers, you enjoy your little stupid game. . keep playin and see if i care bitch .

"behind every successful person , lies a pack full of haters"

NEW week . :D

sooooo, what have i learned ?
i learned that every dark night theres a brighter day .
So today is monday. first day of the week .
[well no shiet kim ] . Lol . So today at school was pretty fun .
Asb was good . 2nd period was HOT . 3rd period , learned that i got worried over nothing.
4th , I found out i NOW , have an A++ , 2nd best score out of the class.
and i dont HAVE TO go to intervention . but i still get a D on my test.
but whatevss . :P . 5th period , was the best class .
Joked around alot . Mr dominici is the best . ;]
Haha , 6th period , was pretty okay .
So this week , we have collab on wednesday .
Thursday is the technologic dance .
its gonna be legitt . [; .
Mini raveee . HAHA . sickkkk .And thats about it . :D


i named him bob ^^^^^

school sux so far

oh myy , i hate my class. on monday i have to do a presentaion , and a test . And i have intervention . I thought i was smart . And now i have a D in mr bowens math class . wtf. 6th period is worst of all . Freaken bell .I made the class stay behind cuz i didnt know how to answer a question . ugh .
oh wells , i guess this is how school is . ? oh and i heard that its gonna be hotter this week ?
i liek to complain alot . just saying . :D

overall ,

Lol wow , noone blogs anymore :P .
Haha , oh wells :D .
So yesterday night , my dog stole my monkey slipper .
i caught him on the couch , licking the monkey slipper's ears .
wttfock . LOLOL .



Haha so these couple of days gotten better . :D .
went to a birthday party on saturday .
& that was pretty good .
schools beeen okay , hating the homework .
haha . summers OFFICIALLY over .
I was goanna add something , uhhhuhhhhuhhhh.
uhhhhhh , OH YEA .
THE VMAS HAHA .
wow , poor taylor .
even though i agree with kanye . Lol.
but that was still pretty messed up .
And hes going out with amber rose? ?
ideeekayy .
& i guess this is it .
ill prolly blog in 5 years .
TOOOTAAAHHLOOO .
wowow , who says that ?
tootahloo ? wtff .



^^ i take lame pictures. anyways that was the birthday party .

ugh .

Oh noes . its like that last night where you can have an all nighter . D: .
The day after tomorrow is SCHOOL .
oh my gawh . THat was so fckin fast .
So today , i hung out with them again .
pretty fun :D .
Gonna hang out with them tomorrow again exept more people.
Im gonna try to make the best out of tomorrow.

phone with don tonight .;]

good ;]

one of those good days .
Today was such a chill day .
started off boring , and was gonna go to the block .
But instead , hung out with friends .
& met new people .
There so chill . Hahaha .
Today was those REALLY good days .
Made up for those bad days .
Not really going into detail .
But oh wells ;] .
So fun today! Thats a good way to end my summer .
♥ ♥

worst day ever . seirously .
it started in the morning . i woke up and then an hour later .
I had the worst cramps in the history of worst cramps .
ugh . So, I decided to ask my dad , to let me skip church .
Worst mistake of my life .
But my cramps cleared up around 5 oclock . So that was good .
But when i asked my dad if he could take me to kevins thing ,
he was like WHAT . I thought you had "stomach pains"
& i said , well it cleared up already .
Well , he said thats weird ...
But then he finally gave in and let me go .
So i got ready ; showered , changed . Once we were in the car .
waiting for my mom....
He gave me a speech . He sarted yelling and saying dont do that again ,
I said , do what again ? He said dont lie & cheat again .
WTF MAN . HE thought i faked it so i didnt have to go .
stupid . stupid. stupid .
Dammit my moms leaving to vietnam , tomorrow for a month.
that means STRICT STRICT STRICT . fml .
Dam . 5 days left to school .
cant wait -_-

dammmit.

7 MORE DAYS!
can you belivee it ? 7 more days till school . :O
enjoi it while you can . Cuz schools gonna be roughh . Lol .
Ugh , i hate the feeling of having to do projects, essays, homework D: .
im GONNA enjoi the lastt 7 days of freedom..while i can D:

trippy ass day .

the beginning ;Im just gonna go right to it . It was around 1:30 . I was all ready .gonna head out the doorr . BUT THEN . UH OH . My brother comes out and says "LET ME DO YOUR HAIR" . I was like uhmm , no thankyou mabey next timee. :D . Hes like "NONONONO . It will only take 2 mintues". I gave in.Haha . Worst mistake in my lifee! . So he took HALF of the hair waxx ,put it in his hand and plopped it right on to my head . he started , messing around with it . and when we were done . My harid WASS FCKNN BIGGGGG!!! . EXTRA VOLUME.! . OMGAHED . So after that incident , i went to go wash my hair in the sink . He came in , hes like OH NO . Why are you doing that . im like ...... uhmm im only washing my bangs ?? . Hes like OH OKAY LET ME DO IT AGAIN! . I WAS LIKE NOOOO! . ITS OKAY .!! LOLOL . FMl .Hahah Oh and i arrived to catherines house like 30 mintues late . HAHA . anyways moving on ;;;;

the funnest; So catherines mom drove us to outside calvins house thing . & we met up Richmond , His brother & girlfriend, Bailey , Timmy, Eric, Alex, Sydney,Hoang and anthony . & then later came tram , don , christy , & robinson. :D . They went swimming , while me christy, Timmy , Robinson, catherine , and don just hung out . But then Don , tram,Christy & catherine all left at 5. So then aFter the cake, chips , drinks. WE all went to this big room , where it looks like a dance studio without the mirrors. LOL .we just all chilled theree, and fool around . It was pretty fun . Untill .....

SADDEST/DEPRESSED : So Hoang , anthony, richmond,his brother, and girlfriend left to walton park . & later timmy left before the saddest thing happend .So it was me , bailey, sydney , eric, alex , robinson, &calvin . Sitting at the couches . So we all gahtered up . Our plan was to convince his dad or stepmom to let me stay . So we called his dad 10x . His step mom 10x. When we stopped . alex tried and BAM we got it . We kept talking to her , trying to convince her . EVERYONE STARTED CRYINg . Seirous . Sydney calvin, me eric alex & bailey . sitting here listening to calvins stepmom talk . saying all these things that HURT us SO much . I got mad , and was like HANG UP THE PHONE . & then when she said "Its gonna be the same , you dont HAVE to see him EVERYDAY . it got us SO sadd . Cuz we NEED calvin . But now its over . Hes moving . Its done . We tried fighting so hard . but were done . Sat there crying to ourselves , Listing all the memoried we ALL had together. Got us crying so fckin much . Bailey got a call from her mom saying he had to go . WE hugged calvin . & cried some more in the car............


FUNNNN AGAIN; So in the car , i was like 1 minute away from my house . & baileys mom asked us ARE YOU GUYS HUNGRY ? . i was like YEA . then her mom was like Ask them if they want to go eat . and we asked . And they said YES . :D . so we picked them up . Azn styled in the car . 2 people in the front 5 people in the back . [robinson went home] Went to eat phoo . Ate so much . Shared so many memories . Took the pictures . & now its over . THis is really it . He is really moving . Goodbye . D: .Im glad , we got to spend the whole day with him .

Good bye Calvin , remember we will ALWAYS love you ♥ . No matter what .

shit happends .

Today while playing rockband ; i REALIZED 2 things . The first thing , is that i SUCK at drums . Lol .& Second , i REALLY understand that you CANT trust anyone . I thought i could trust my "closest friends" . But nah , I really cant . The only person that you can trust; is YOURSELF . It was pretty random , how all of a sudden i was playing the guitar & then i started thinking and thinking and realizing . then it really got to me ." You really cant trust anyone." But this is life .Shit happends . Drama happends . Friends are lost . Family problems . You just gotta deal with it . Life is cruel . All you can do is live it & make the most of it.
“Trust self. You know more then you think you do. ”



btw; this is just my opionon/ thought/ perspective. So dont get me wrong . Do whatever you desire .

short.

So today , i went to westminister mall with my mutherr . & i boughtt black and white vans [so typical] . ehh its alright :D . Not blogging that much anymore . So yeaa . Tomorrows the block . Im gonna die in the heat D: . today was 99 degrees ? omgaahhh . omgosh , imagine p.e with this weather . AHH . D: So thats basically it . :D

SUCKKAS .

AHAH Hes Oneee Coooool guy . CHeckk him out . :D && hit FOLLOOW .

http://djkeezy.blogspot.com

hmm .

Oh noes . Summers coming to an endd soon . Oh my . THAt was really fast . Didnt reallly get to do what i wanted to do . But its okayy ... This summer was funnish . Really good memories . :D ehh, anyways i was suppose to talk about the weather Lol . i hate the HOT weather . Ughh . It gives me a headache . :P && there were about 2 days , which was glooomy and not sunny :D . I love those days . The weathers weirdd . Its like one day its hot and then its gloomy & gray . GLOBAL WARMING ? nahh , efff thatt . eff 2012 . If we die , we die . Not much to it . Sorry , not in the mood to blog . :P

ehhh . What a bad day .I expirenced the longest 2 hours of my life . I hate how either im REALLY happy ,Or im like idgaf . Well , today i was suppose to go to a pool party / hangout . But instead i sat home , waited for my mom for 2 hours . She said she will be homee at 2. Wtf . She lagged , and came home at 5:00 . dammit . I couldve just walked . but im those kind of people who get lost very easily , and takes 2 hours to walk somewhere. Lol . So ,I got pissed at everything . I dont know why i did . I felt my blood rushing , & my heart pounding .And so the 2 hours i waited for my mom ; I did nothing . Layed down in bed . & waited for a sound of a car . & everytime i "thought" i heard her car . I got angrier , and angrier . But she took to long , and i kinda fell asleep . Lol . It was so hot in the room . I woke up haveing nightmares . & the bad part about it . I remembered them . ugh . Gosh dammit . why is life like this ? I always question myself . But i guess , this is how it is . You have your ups and downs . I guess i have to learn , thats how life works .


"Everything has been figured out, except how to live." ;

"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment." -Buddha .

my day;

So basically , I was pretty much on the road today . But before that , i just "edited" my myspace profile . most people hate it cuz its REALLY Pink . LOl . but oh wells; i like it :] & my pink ninja player .Oh and you have to watch the video on my profile . freakinn sickkk. Lol. Anyways ,after i was done , we went to change the tire for the car , and got food [Lees sandwhiches]. & went shopping for my backback , binder, pencils . All i need is my shoes . Which im planning to get ;

But in a different color :D . Oh man schools coming up . Oh and my registration is on Wednesday, September 3rd . Come and visit me . teehee . Ehh thats about it . :] .

LOL ;

LOL she always make me smile :D . Haha . Ill miss you Lauren toledo ♥ .

Sql's casa ;

SQL ♥ CPV ♥KBLW♥

Today , Me , Bailey, & catherine went over to Sydneys house . :D . We watched "the notebook" , made dino nuggets, took a whole bunch of pictures. [but bailey left early ]. D:
Not being very detailed , but oh wells :D . Lol . Fun day, funday.
ENJoii . ;]

Lalala ;

WOW . last night , i slept around 4 amish . I talked on the phone with Don till 1:30 am . Another hour and 10 minutes[my guess] passed when I watched " confessions of a shopaholic" with my mom.Lol So thats 2:30-3:am. Haha . The rest of the time , I listened to my ipod . & only listened to trance&techno&house music .
[benny benassi,kaskade,deadmau5,Atb,Dj Italian sensation etc.etc.etc]
It kept me pumped , and i had so much energy . Thats a good thing ; but not when your about to go to sleep . Lol . i love techno&trance becuase of the really good beatss,the good rythm, the energy of the song, & you can just go crazy wit it . yahh know ? lol . house music , is not so different .Its more soothing though , i like to listen to it when im relaxed :D . Anyways , tehcno is so different from other type of music . Its only beats & sound [which i like] .teehee .After last night , i really appretiate music .Tehcno; all day erryyday ♥


"Without music life would be a mistake." ;
"Music is enough for a lifetime, but a lifetime is not enough for music";
"When the music changes, so does the dance"

* Favorite song : 4am-kaskade (Adam K & Soha Remix)

fun day;

Today was a fun day :D . I went over to maah friends house , and played Rock bandd & ate the best grilled cheese ever . :D . i love playing rockbandd , i suck on drums . I like the guitar . ;] . mucho fun . And then at 4 , i went home . & got ready for the pizza party at round table . It was fun tooo . Free pizza & drinks !! yumyum . Hung out with friends ,relaxed , played games, free food . & to top it off , when i got home there was a whole mess of junk food. LOL . There were donuts ,chips, candy, and a whole lot moreee .. i have no idea why . LOL . good day . ;] <3

Picnic ;

Well , Calvins picnic was yesterday . Saturday the 15th . Oh man what a day . Really good adveneture :D . So I went to Catherines house , and took pictures & waited for bailey . :') She came at like 2 pm . and on our way there , we kinda got lost . LOL . but we asked these random 2 bikers . & eventually found our way . So we arrived . And THERE NOT THERE . lol . we were suppose to be there BY 2 . but arrived at like 2 :40ish. So Baileys mom dropped us off . and we waited . Then they camee , and the car was PACKED . i mean PACKED . There were like 15 people in the van thingy .LOL. or mabey more . Lol . anyways so me , catherine , and bailey . All had to sit ontop of each other . D: FAIL . Lol . so we got theree , and they just set up the food and what not . ;')
we just layed back , and chilllaxed , took pictures .

later that evening ; We all decided to go hiking . EXEPT , sydney and calvin . :') So it was me , bailey , catherine , alex, manny , hoang , and eric . Lol . It was a pretty sight . [kinda] . And it was lots of fun :D So we got back , and we all played freeze tag . exept manny . & sydney went home D: . It was really funny . Cuz calvin had a cramp on his leg . and he fell .& was SCREAMINg . HAHa . ;') . good times .

going home; so we all packed and got ready to go home D: . and guess what we had to do . we had to fit in that car again . LOL . so catherine sat on alexs lap . I sat on hoangs lap . and bailey on erics :D . manny was alone . and so was calvin . LOL . Calvin kept mentioning that he was alone . LOL . so , we said our good byes . & left . Just waiting for the reunion on the 28th . :D





^^^^,manny & hoang didnt get in the picture . & sydney and calvin wasnt with us .

ROOOMROOM .

LOLOL ROOMROOM . :D . Ahh today was such a fasttt dayy . ohh my . Okay well , today at 9am I was suppose to go to target with my momm, to buy new ear phones .So I woke up this morning & got out of my room ; *sigh* no one was here . D: . I called my mom, and shes like "ill be home in an hour" . :P . i was like OMG . so i hopped back into my bed :D . and slept till 10 . I woke up , and got up . And noone was there :P . i called again, I was like "mom where are you" . and shes like "I SAID ILL BE HOME IN AN HOUR " i was like , "YOU SAID THAT ONE HOUR AGO" . and shes like okay 10 more minutes . :O . Lol . wow . so i hopped onto the computer, imed up some people . and she came home at 11 . FML . LOL . Right before we left i did my laundry really quick . But before we went to target . We went to staples , and dropped off my uncle to the dentist . [fast forward] okay so we got home and its like 11:45 . Im like OMFG . i still need to put the laundry in the dryer , shower , change , do the hair , & more . By 1 :P . but i made it 15 minutes late to catherines house . :P . LOL .
But thats okay . READD "CALVINS PICNIC " tomorrow .
[too be continued ..]

this summer so far;

• Went to washington for 6 days :D
• Had the best day ever LOL.
• Ate boiling crab with family
  
• Got sick for a week . :P
• create a blog ;]
• birthday parties
  
• lots & lots of hangouts at the block
• meet new people :D
• become closer with some friends .
• got a pet pig :D
• camera whored with friends LOL
  
• went to play games 2 days in a row for 10 hours
• went to oc fair
  
• sneaked out of the house . [shhh]
• got GIANT nemo
• photostickers :D

HAHA well , thats about it so far . Ill add more later . enjoii .

Oh and if you were wondering about the pet pig thing , i was talking about -

LOL

the usual ; [kinda]

ehh the usual , another boring day . Just waiting for the 28th . :D unless someone wants to make plans before that :D . teehehee . Well today was just like any other day ....exept the morning . LOL . okay well when i woke up , i thought it was a school day but i was likee half asleep , so i wasnt thinking . It just popped in my brain that it was the first day of school .ahaha wtheoo .[I know im weird] .So i woke up at like 7am . And went to the bathroom and showered . I got out, i looked at the time . i was like "WTFFF" [oh and yes there is a clock in my bathroom]. & right away i got dressed [back in my pjs] :D . and noone was awake . So at that momment ; i went back to my room; blow dried my hair [Which took a very long time] and crawled back into my pink bed and went back to sleeep until 12 :D . teehee . very weird morning . LOL . anyways , my day was just the usual . Besides the morning , which was odd . I alsoo LOVEDLOVED the weather :] omyygahh . I took a walk too . which , i usually dont do . It was glooomy and gray . jsut the way i like it :D .
HAHA . well , im done heree . Ill blog like tomorrow ;]

the things i like ;

im bored , like always . But you cant blame me . :D LOL . okay anyways i dont know what to blog about . So ill just talk about the things i like :D . So im not going by any special order or anything like that . Im just gonna write whatever pops in my mind :D so enjoy. hmm i like SPONGEBOB . Tehehe . of course :') who doesnt like spongebob ? spongebob is a classic. Hes really interesting to watch LOL. i always get a good laugh :D . hmm , what else . OH I LOVE LOVE LOVE snowconess. Especially the one at oc fair . YUMM. it was watermelon ;]yumm yumm in my tum tum . & i likee techno / trance/house music. Anything with good rhythm and beats :D . yuppppperss . show me any good songs ;') . My favorite artist/rapper has to be KANYE WEST. Yeshh , i like his voice :D . lol . anyways , FAVORITE DANCEKREW of all time ; JABBAWOCKEEZ . yesh . The legendary jabbawockeez <3 Okay kiddos . Im done hereee . Night night . Blog tomorrow :D

bad day ;

You know why i really like blogging ? Its cuz you can "vent" & not annoy anyone . Yah know ? And you can just express your feelings or just write about your day . So anyways , today was just a mess.. First off , i did absolutely nothing & i got in BIG BIG BIG trouble . like massive trouble . D: and my dad tells me that he can no longer trust me .Hes so pissed off at me . The only thing was fun , was when i talked to catherine on the phone . wow . I realized i have like no life . & which sucks is that i know im wasting my time & i dont do anything about it . I know that when i get back to school , ill look back and be like i wasted my summer doing nothing . Most of my summer , was just going on aim , myspace and listening to music . The rest was just hanging out with friends . Didnt do much . But i wanna change that . Im just not sure what to do . Mabey bake cakes for fun ? Lol . :D sorry i know this blogg doesnt make any sence . ;] I just wanted to let it out and just relieve myself . ill gurentee you , it will be much better next time.:D

addiction ;

AHHH . D: Addictions can be really bad . But it just happens all of a sudden. LOL. I feel kinda boyish saying this . But i think im addicted to "cs " or "counter strike" source. I played for like 10 hours straight . And before i sleep , i always imagine myself playing . AHA . wow . thats really weird. But seirously , its FUNFUNFUN . i played for 10 hours , 2 days in a row . AHH. its weird to say taht i like counterstrike . i would never imagine myself saying that . :D But oh wells , Im not ashamed that im playing a boyish game. its just i think im really addicted now . Its not my fault D: . i think . AHHA . i hate how this happends. first time i try it , i begin to like it .But then after , i keep playing and playing and playing D: . but yes, it is fun . If you dont know what it is . It is a shooting game . REALLY FUN . I like being the counter terrorist . I like shooting people . PEWPEWPEW . LOL . thanks for reading :]

My opinion ;

Okay folks , This is just my personal opinion . You can choose to read it or not . Please no argueements. Im just posting this up for fun . LOL . so yesterday , at 1am I was watching ABDC. I couldnt watch it opening night cuz i was somewhere... :D . LOL . So i had to watch it at 1am . tehehe . So , i didnt really like the krews . They kinda sucked . D: exept for like 2 . Which i kinda liked . heh . but compared to the other seasons , they have to stepp it up . & i know its just the beginning but still last 3 seasons were way better . [ just saying ] i was all excited to watch it . but when i watched it i was like thinking to myself "omg im staying up for this ?" aha . anyways , i was disapointed . I hope they do WAY better next sunday . :]
Oh and the 2 krews i liked so far was , "MASSIVE MONKEES" & "RHYTHM CITY" . There alright yah know ? :D well thanks for reading , ;]

First time blogger ;

Im a first time blogger, so im sorry if my blog is kinda suckiish. AHAH. At first I didnt really want a blog . But then Hoang aka[smiley] convinced me other wise . So i decided to make one , and it seems really fun , Just opening up and writing about my day . One day ill be like 25 reading about this ;Well i hope :D Im also making a blog because im UBER bored . LoL . bordem kills . So yahh . thanks for reading , ill post up more , later, or right now :D